My Facebook looks like High School

Is it just me or does everyone's facebook look like your high school year book? Other than a few relatives, the only people I know on Facebook are people from High School. I guess a big part of why the majority of people on there are high school is my upcoming high school reunion. Twenty years... um, yikes!

It isn't that big of a deal that the only people I know on Facebook are people from high school, except it brings up all those feelings of insecurity and inadequacy again. I mean, I have literally hesitated to ask someone to be my friend because I'm afraid they'll not remember me or turn me down/ignore me because they don't like me/didn't like me. I'm not sure which would be worse!

It is strange to me that we never get over how we felt at certain times in life and how certain people or situations can make us revert to a person we were "way back when." I am not at all the person I was in high school, nor do I want to be her again. I feel I've grown into a heck of a person and I like the me I am now. I can't say the same about the person I was then.

I said after my ten year reunion that I wouldn't ever go back to another one. I felt like I was in contact with the people I wanted to be in contact with and that was enough. I'd seen what I needed to see at that reunion and that was enough.

Time has mellowed my attitude toward going to the reunion. I still don't know if I'll actually go to it, but Facebook and time passing has made me curious. I have until next May to decide if I'm going or not. I guess we'll see if curiosty gets the best of me between now and then.