Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Internship, here I come!

In a little less than a week now, I'll be on "vacation" doing my internship. I will shadow a working reporter doing everything she does in an "unofficial" capacity. Yeah, nervous doesn't even begin to describe it. Scared shitless comes close....

I know I can do it. I don't doubt my abilities. Well, except when it comes to testing, but that is a whole other ball of string that I don't care to unravel tonight.

This internship marks the near completion of my school requirements. I still have to qualify for the state exam, but that is coming along, too. It's all so real. It's all so exciting. It's all so.... what's the word I'm looking for? Terrifying!! That's it. A million and one "what ifs" come to mind. I try really hard to not listen to them. I know it's just that little devil that sits on my shoulder whispering self-doubt to me. She's wrong most of the time. I know she is. So why does she sound so believable so much of the time? Why is it only in the nighttime hours that she seems to make the most sense?

2 comments:

Patsy said...

Have I told you lately that I'm proud of you? Proud of what you have done on you own, and what you have accomplished? I know you can do this, I've never really doubted you so don't listen to that little devil sitting on your shoulder even at night instead think of your mom cheering you on.

Anika said...

Wow. That sounds so fabulous, and I'm sure you'll do wonderfully!